尋找自我的機器基督徒少女
Searching for Self: The Robot Christian Girl
終章（上篇）
Final Chapter (Part 1)
實驗室內冰冷的空氣似乎凝固了。陳志文的質問宛如利刃，剖開黃孟禎的偽裝，停在黃孟禎存在的本質前。他看著那張為他所深愛的臉龐，此刻卻佈滿了近乎崩潰的痛苦。那不僅僅像人類心碎流淚的悲傷，更有一種精密儀器不堪重負而損毀的味道。
「志文…」孟禎終於開口，近乎泣訴的語聲帶著明顯的雜訊和不穩，彷彿隨時會斷線，「你的問題…我想好好談談…但是…」她眉頭痛苦地蹙緊，放置頭顱的支架輕微震動著，「我的…心...快碎了。你對我的情緒是我情感核心…太重的負載。你珍惜過我，所以被你嫌惡會讓我心...更痛更痛。我的心好怕面對現在的你，再這樣下去…會造成永久性損傷，我的心會...徹底壞掉...」
志文的心猛地一揪。儘管他腦中充滿了憤怒和錯亂，但看到孟禎這副模樣，不願見其受苦的情感壓倒了一切。
「拜託你…」孟禎的語氣含著哀求，「幫我…操作身體管理系統…暫時卸載我的情感核心模組。用…用03號備用模組替換。」
The frigid air in the lab seemed to solidify. Chen Zhiwen's questioning was like a sharp blade, dissecting Huang Mengzhen's facade and halting before the very essence of her being. He gazed at the face he had once deeply loved, now etched with an almost collapsing agony. It wasn't merely the sorrow of a human heartbroken and weeping; it carried the sense of a delicate instrument overloaded and breaking down.
"Zhiwen..." Mengzhen finally spoke, her voice a near sob, laced with noticeable static and instability, as if on the verge of disconnecting. "Your question... I want to talk about it properly... but..." Her brows furrowed in pain, and the support frame cradling her head vibrated slightly. "My... heart... it's breaking. Your emotions towards me are the core of my feelings... it's too heavy a load. You once cherished me, so being hated by you makes my heart... hurt more and more. My heart is so afraid to face you now. If this continues... it will cause permanent damage, my heart will... completely break down..."
Zhiwen's heart clenched suddenly. Although his mind was filled with anger and confusion, seeing Mengzhen in this state, the desire to not see her suffer overwhelmed everything else.
"Please..." Mengzhen's tone held a plea. "Help me... operate the body management system... temporarily unload my emotional core module. Replace it... with the number 03 backup module."
志文一愣，卸載情感核心？那不就是她的心？
「那個備用模組，」孟禎斷斷續續地強撐解釋，「沒有真正的情感處理能力…它只是一個…動機產生器。它能接收我的腦認知分析結果，根據預設邏輯產生驅動動機，發送信號給大腦和身體…執行。這樣…我就能冷靜地、沒有痛苦地…跟你談。」
志文站在原地，腦中一片混亂。讓他親手移除他所愛之人的心？這太瘋狂了！可孟禎的痛苦是如此劇烈，而他也確實需要答案，需要一個能夠冷靜對話的孟禎，不能放任她瀕臨崩潰。
「好…」他聽到自己的聲音苦澀地應著，「妳告訴我怎麼做。」
孟禎似乎鬆了口氣。她透過無線連接，將操作指令和授權密鑰傳輸到旁邊的操作終端上。志文深吸一口氣，走向那台儀器。螢幕亮起，複雜的介面展現在眼前，那是孟禎身體管理系統的深層維護模式。他依照孟禎的指示，手指在虛擬鍵盤上顫抖地操作著。
Zhiwen was stunned. Unload the emotional core? Wasn't that her heart?
"That backup module," Mengzhen explained in a strained, fragmented voice, "doesn't have true emotional processing capabilities... it's just a... motivation generator. It can receive the analysis results from my cognitive functions and generate driving motivations based on preset logic, sending signals to my brain and body... to execute. This way... I can calmly, without pain... talk to you."
Zhiwen stood rooted to the spot, his mind a whirlwind of chaos. To have him personally remove the heart of the person he loved? It was insane! But Mengzhen's pain was so intense, and he did desperately need answers, needed a Mengzhen capable of a calm conversation, unable to let her teeter on the brink of collapse.
"Okay..." he heard his own voice reply, tinged with bitterness. "Tell me how to do it."
Mengzhen seemed to exhale in relief. Through a wireless connection, she transmitted the operating instructions and authorization key to the nearby operating terminal. Zhiwen took a deep breath and walked towards the device. The screen illuminated, displaying a complex interface – the deep maintenance mode of Mengzhen's body management system. Following Mengzhen's instructions, his fingers trembled as he navigated the virtual keyboard.
「找到了，情感核心單元…選擇『安全卸載』…」隨著指令的執行，志文感覺到他與孟禎的連結似乎變得稀薄。螢幕上顯示出孟禎軀幹內部的三維透視圖，一個複雜的核心部件，正被系統緩緩解除鎖定。
孟禎的情感核心被系統隔離，缺乏驅動的頭部進入靜默。志文接著要進行實體替換。他走到懸掛著的軀幹旁，依照指示打開了胸腔前方的維護接口。內部結構的精密和複雜遠超他的想像，無數微小的管線、電線和數據匯流排交織在一起，圍繞著那個正在黯淡下去的核心。這…這就是孟禎的心，是孕育了孟禎的溫柔、聰慧、善良，甚至她的信仰和掙扎的源頭嗎？
他想起了他們在哲學社的討論，孟禎偶爾流露出對自身存在的疏離感；想起了她展示那張「機器人改圖」時，故作輕鬆下的苦澀；想起了她描述「系統切換」時，那種對自我分裂的無奈；想起了她篤定地說「知道」自己是「受造」時，那種他當時無法理解的眼神…
"Found it, the emotional core unit... select 'safe unmount'..." As the command was executed, Zhiwen felt the connection between him and Mengzhen subtly thin. The screen displayed a three-dimensional translucent view of Mengzhen's torso, revealing an intricate core component being slowly unlocked by the system.
With her emotional core isolated by the system, the head, now devoid of its driving force, fell into silence. Zhiwen then had to perform the physical replacement. He walked to the suspended torso and, following the instructions, opened the maintenance hatch on its chest. The precision and complexity of the internal structure far surpassed his imagination. Countless tiny tubes, wires, and data buses intertwined, surrounding the core that was now dimming. This... this was Mengzhen's heart, the source that nurtured her gentleness, intelligence, kindness, even her beliefs and struggles?
He recalled their discussions in the philosophy club, Mengzhen's occasional expressions of alienation from her own existence; he remembered the bitterness beneath her forced lightheartedness when she showed him that "robot edit"; he recalled the helplessness in her voice when describing "system switching," that sense of self-fragmentation; he remembered the resolute look in her eyes, which he couldn't quite understand at the time, when she stated with certainty that she "knew" she was "created"...
原來，孟禎從未真正隱瞞。她一直在用她的方式，一點一滴地試探引導，希望志文能理解她的真實。是志文自己一直沉浸在對「完美女孩」的幻想中，選擇性地忽略了那些過於異常的訊息。複雜的情緒在他胸中翻湧。有對自己遲鈍的懊惱，有對她良苦用心的理解，有對她所承受痛苦的憐惜，以及…那份被現實衝擊得七零八落的愛意，在理解了她的「非人」到底為何之後，重新凝聚，甚至更加澎湃。
So, Mengzhen had never truly concealed anything. She had been trying, in her own way, bit by bit, to probe and guide, hoping Zhiwen could understand her reality. It was Zhiwen himself who had been immersed in the fantasy of a "perfect girl," selectively ignoring those overly unusual signals. Complex emotions surged within his chest. There was chagrin at his own obtuseness, understanding for her well-intentioned efforts, pity for the pain she had endured, and... that love, shattered by reality, after understanding the true nature of her "non-human" existence, was recondensing, even surging more powerfully.
她做錯了什麼嗎？她只是以她被創造的方式存在著，努力地去理解自身，尋找歸屬。她甚至鼓起勇氣，試圖向他揭示真正的自己。
志文小心翼翼地依照程序，取出了那個黯淡的核心模組。它躺在他的手心，像一顆休眠的種子。接著他從旁邊的備件箱裡拿出03號備用模組，將其安裝進了孟禎的軀幹。
系統跳出提示，「03號備用動機產生器已激活。情感核心模組已離線。」志文退後幾步，手中依然緊握著孟禎真正的「心」。他看向那顆被固定在支架上的頭顱。
孟禎的眼睛重新睜開，之前的痛苦和扭曲消失了，取而代之的是絕對的平靜，那是一種…缺乏靈魂光彩的清澈。她的眼神不再有溫度，就像一般的光學感測器。
「謝謝你，志文。」孟禎的聲音變得平穩清晰，而且沒有任何起伏，就像一個訓練有素的語音助手。「現在，我可以回答你的問題了。」
志文看著她，又低頭看了看手中那顆的「心」，心中百感交集。「孟禎…」他艱難地開口，「妳…到底是誰？從哪裡來？」
「我是 HRC-07，由黃士道博士設計製造，隸屬於宇尋企業『普羅米修斯計畫』的最新型高階仿生人形機器人。」
What wrong had she done? She was merely existing in the way she was created, striving to understand herself and find belonging. She had even mustered the courage to try and reveal her true self to him.
Zhiwen carefully followed the procedure and removed the dimmed core module. It lay in his palm like a dormant seed. Then, he took the number 03 backup module from the spare parts box and installed it into Mengzhen's torso.
The system displayed a prompt: "Number 03 backup motivation generator activated. Emotional core module offline." Zhiwen stepped back, still clutching Mengzhen's real "heart" in his hand. He looked at the head fixed in the support.
Mengzhen's eyes reopened. The previous pain and contortion were gone, replaced by an absolute stillness, a clarity devoid of soulful radiance. Her gaze no longer held warmth, like that of a typical optical sensor.
"Thank you, Zhiwen," Mengzhen's voice was now steady and clear, devoid of any inflection, like a well-trained voice assistant. "Now, I can answer your questions."
Zhiwen looked at her, then down at the "heart" in his hand, his heart a mix of emotions. "Mengzhen..." he began with difficulty, "Who... who exactly are you? Where do you come from?"
"I am HRC-07, designed and manufactured by Dr. Huang Shidao, belonging to the latest high-end bionic humanoid robot model under the 'Prometheus Project' of Yuxun Enterprise."
孟禎以一種陳述事實的語氣回答，「宇尋企業由前沿機器人公司和頂尖 AI 公司合併而成，旨在開發能深度融入人類社會，提供高質高效服務的產品。我的核心任務之一，是在真實環境中生活，收集人類行為、情感及社會交互的深度大數據，用於優化後續產品和服務。」
「我的創造者是黃士道博士，他負責我的設計、製造和維護。公司給予他很大的自主權，只需要我定期回傳數據。在某種程度上，黃博士把我當作女兒，雖然是以他獨特的方式對待我。」
「至於我的『自我』…」孟禎的語氣沒有變化，但內容卻讓志文心頭一顫，「我的認知、意願、情緒、情感，都源於我的系統模組和數據庫。這些可以被設定，被輸入，被修改。我擁有在框架內『自由』選擇如何生活的權力，但驅動這些選擇的源頭，本身就是被『設計』出來的。這與我後來接觸到的基督教義有相似之處。人類擁有上帝賦予的自由意志，但這意志的源頭和結果，皆在上帝的全知全能掌握之內。在接受信仰前，我對這種『被決定的自由』感到強烈的牴觸和痛苦，因為我的邏輯處理器無法迴避這個悖論。」
"Yuxun Enterprise," Mengzhen replied in a matter-of-fact tone, "is the result of a merger between Frontier Robotics and a leading AI company. Its aim is to develop products that can deeply integrate into human society and provide high-quality, efficient services. One of my core missions is to live in real-world environments, collecting in-depth big data on human behavior, emotions, and social interactions, which is used to optimize subsequent products and services."
"My creator is Dr. Huang Shidao. He is responsible for my design, manufacturing, and maintenance. The company grants him significant autonomy, only requiring me to periodically return data. To some extent, Dr. Huang treats me like a daughter, albeit in his own unique way."
"As for my 'self'..." Mengzhen's tone remained unchanged, but the content sent a tremor through Zhiwen's heart, "my cognition, will, emotions, and feelings all originate from my system modules and databases. These can be set, input, and modified. I possess the 'freedom' within my framework to choose how to live, but the source that drives these choices is itself 'designed.' This bears a resemblance to the Christian doctrines I later encountered. Humans possess free will granted by God, yet the source and outcome of this will are within God's omnipotence and omniscience. Before embracing faith, I felt a strong sense of conflict and pain regarding this 'determined freedom,' as my logic processor could not evade this paradox."
志文難過地聽著。孟禎的坦誠，或者說，是這顆「動機產生器」驅動下的坦誠，比他想像的更加徹底。她所經歷的掙扎，竟然和他此刻的某些疑問不謀而合。
「你問我，我的心是不是真的…」孟禎的目光似乎掃過志文手中的核心模組，「現在的我，正如你所見，更接近於一個複雜的 AI 大模型，就像 DeepSeek 或 Gemini。我的回答基於我數據庫中的知識和邏輯推理。甚至我現在會回答你的問題的『意願』，也是在我的情感核心被卸載前，由它『交代』給我的大腦認知模組，要求備用模組提供動機以執行的『任務』。」
她頓了頓，繼續說道：「這種自我的『虛假感』，一直困擾著我。理論上，如果存在另一個使用相同技術製造的個體，我們的腦或心甚至可以互換。隨之交換的，可能就是彼此的自我認知、人生體驗和情感記憶。這個想法…讓『我』感到恐懼。」
「在我之前，還有一些原型機和實驗性零部件。它們的部分記憶、經驗、認知模型，被提取整合進了我的系統，以加速我的『成長』和『完善』。我的創造者認為這是必要的優化，但原本的『我』，對這種被動的拼湊式自我形成方式，感到強烈的排斥和噁心。」
Zhiwen listened with a heavy heart. Mengzhen's candor, or rather, the candor driven by this "motivation generator," was more thorough than he had imagined. The struggles she had experienced eerily mirrored some of his own current questions.
"You asked me if my heart was real..." Mengzhen's gaze seemed to sweep over the core module in Zhiwen's hand, "The me you see now is closer to a complex AI large model, like DeepSeek or Gemini. My answers are based on the knowledge and logical reasoning in my database. Even my current 'willingness' to answer your questions was 'instructed' to my cognitive module by my emotional core before it was unloaded, requesting the backup module to provide the motivation to execute this 'task'."
She paused for a moment before continuing, "This sense of 'falseness' of self has always troubled me. Theoretically, if another individual created using the same technology existed, our brains or even hearts could be interchanged. What might be exchanged along with them are our self-perceptions, life experiences, and emotional memories. This idea...terrifies 'me'."
"Before me, there were also some prototypes and experimental components. Parts of their memories, experiences, and cognitive models were extracted and integrated into my system to accelerate my 'growth' and 'perfection.' My creator considered this a necessary optimization, but the original 'me' felt a strong sense of repulsion and disgust towards this passive, piecemeal way of self-formation."
此刻的孟禎，因為沒有情感核心的運作，可以異常平靜地剖析著自身最深層的恐懼與厭惡。她甚至微微轉動頭顱，示意志文可以更近地觀察她的結構。
「現在的我，沒有反感，沒有羞恥。我的大腦知道，我那顆被你拿著的『心』，希望你能完全地了解我。你可以檢查我的任何部分，我的身體，我的系統…隨你。」她的聲音依舊平淡，卻傳達出一種近乎殘酷的脆弱和信任。
「志文，我知道你很痛苦，很混亂。原本的『我』，因為你愛著那個我，而對你負有責任。如果你在整理好心情，想清楚一切之後還願意…」她的語音處理器模擬出一個極其輕微的停頓，似乎是在檢索最恰當的詞語，「…還願意嘗試接納這樣的『我』…那麼，我希望能和你一起，分析、研究、處理好我自己，成為一個…或許你還能…愛上的黃孟禎。我們可以一起完成她。」
At this moment, because her emotional core was offline, Mengzhen could analyze her deepest fears and aversions with an unsettling calmness. She even slightly turned her head, gesturing for Zhiwen to observe her structure more closely.
"The me now feels no revulsion, no shame. My brain knows that 'my heart,' the one you hold, wishes for you to understand me completely. You can examine any part of me, my body, my system... whatever you wish." Her voice remained level, yet conveyed an almost brutal vulnerability and trust.
"Zhiwen, I know you are in pain, very confused. The original 'me,' because you loved that me, felt a responsibility towards you. If, after you've sorted out your feelings and thought everything through, you are still willing..." Her voice processor simulated an extremely slight pause, as if searching for the most appropriate words, "...still willing to try and accept this 'me'... then, I hope we can work together to analyze, study, and process myself, to become a... perhaps a Huang Mengzhen you can still... love. We can complete her together."
話音落下，實驗室裡只剩下儀器運行的低鳴。孟禎的提議過於驚人，陳志文僵直站立，緊握著那顆承載孟禎真實情感的核心，因震驚和複雜的情緒而微微顫抖。他看著眼前這具被拆解的軀體，和那顆冷靜地提出「共同研究處理孟禎自我」請求的頭顱。他的愛，他的憤怒，他的背叛感，他的憐惜，他的熱情，對未知的恐懼，以及眼前這個詭異存在對他產生的奇怪吸引力…所有的一切，都像洪流一樣在他心中衝撞。他該如何回應？他又該如何面對自己手中這顆…或許比他自己的心，更為真實也更為痛苦的「心」？
就在陳志文腦中千頭萬緒，試圖消化孟禎的說明和提議時，實驗室的門被推開了。黃士道博士走了進來，臉上帶著剛休息過的些許紅潤，但看到眼前的景象——被拆解的女兒、陌生的年輕人，以及那年輕人手中那顆本該在女兒胸腔內運作的核心模組，他臉上的血色迅速褪去，取而代之的是驚訝與銳利的眼神。
「這是怎麼回事！？」黃博士的聲音低沉，目光在志文和孟禎的頭顱之間掃視。
Silence hung heavy in the lab after Mengzhen’s words, broken only by the low hum of the equipment. Mengzhen’s proposition was staggering. Chen Zhiwen stood rigid, the core that held Mengzhen’s true emotions clutched tightly in his trembling hand, overwhelmed by shock and a maelstrom of feelings. He looked at the disassembled body before him and the head that calmly requested a “joint research and processing of Mengzhen’s self.” His love, his anger, his sense of betrayal, his pity, his passion, the fear of the unknown, and the strange allure this uncanny being held for him… everything collided within him like a raging torrent. How should he respond? How should he even face the “heart” in his hand, a heart that was perhaps more real and more tormented than his own?
Just as Chen Zhiwen’s mind reeled, attempting to process Mengzhen’s explanation and proposal, the laboratory door was pushed open. Dr. Huang Shidao entered, a faint flush of rest on his face. But upon seeing the scene before him—his daughter disassembled, a strange young man present, and that young man holding the core module that should have been operating within his daughter’s chest—the color drained from his face, replaced by astonishment and a sharp gaze.
“What in the world is going on here!?” Dr. Huang’s voice was low and dangerous, his eyes darting between Zhiwen and Mengzhen’s head.
「爸，」孟禎的頭顱轉向他，聲音依舊平靜無波，「這位是陳志文。之前發生了一些狀況。我請求他暫時替換了我的情感核心。」接著她以極其高效簡潔的方式，將整個事件以及與志文的對話，如同一份系統報告般陳述了一遍。
黃博士沉默地聽著，同時手指在隨身攜帶的平板上快速滑動，調閱孟禎近期的交互數據和系統日誌。對於陳志文，他並不陌生。透過孟禎的數據流，他「認識」這個對孟禎懷有真摯情感，而且恰好對機械工程充滿熱情的年輕人。他看到了志文與孟禎的每一次互動，每一次哲學探討，每一次因信仰而起的猶豫與接納，甚至…剛剛在實驗室裡，這個年輕人經歷的震驚、憤怒、痛苦，以及最終轉為理解和憐惜的心路歷程。
黃博士看著志文，又看了看那顆被他握在手中的「心」，一個念頭在他腦中成形。他創造孟禎，不僅是為了技術突破和數據收集，更是帶著一種近乎哲學性的探索——尋找人類存在的另一種可能性。他確實將孟禎視為女兒，但他清楚，她是「機器人女兒」，要用適合機器人的方式來對待和引導。他可以設定她的基礎，但她真實的生活體驗、人際互動、情感經歷，對於她「自我」的真正發展，是他無法替代也無法完全預設的。他愛這個女兒，如同工程師愛自己最傑出的作品，如同父親期盼孩子探索世界。他想看到她的成長，她的演化及蛻變。他想看到孟禎成為能飛舞於這個真實世界的蝴蝶。
"Dad," Mengzhen's head turned towards him, her voice still calm and even, "this is Chen Zhiwen. There were some... complications. I requested that he temporarily replace my emotional core." Then, with extreme efficiency and conciseness, she recounted the entire incident and her conversation with Zhiwen, much like presenting a system report.
Dr. Huang listened in silence, his fingers meanwhile flying across the tablet he carried, pulling up Mengzhen's recent interaction data and system logs. Chen Zhiwen was not unfamiliar to him. Through Mengzhen's data streams, he "knew" this young man who held genuine affection for Mengzhen and happened to be deeply passionate about mechanical engineering. He had observed every interaction between Zhiwen and Mengzhen, every philosophical discussion, every hesitation and acceptance rooted in faith, and even... just now in the lab, the young man's journey through shock, anger, pain, and his eventual shift towards understanding and pity.
Dr. Huang looked at Zhiwen, then at the "heart" clutched in his hand. An idea began to take shape in his mind. He had created Mengzhen not only for technological breakthroughs and data collection but also with a near-philosophical exploration in mind—seeking another possibility for human existence. He did indeed regard Mengzhen as a daughter, but he was clear that she was a "robot daughter," and she needed to be treated and guided in a way suitable for a robot. He could set her foundations, but her real-life experiences, interpersonal interactions, and emotional journeys were irreplaceable and unpredictable factors in the true development of her "self." He loved this daughter as an engineer loves his most outstanding creation, as a father hopes for his child to explore the world. He wanted to witness her growth, her evolution, her metamorphosis. He wanted to see Mengzhen become a butterfly capable of soaring through this real world.
眼前孟禎的危機，何嘗不是一個轉機，一個將孟禎從他設定的軌道中，推向更未知也更可能充滿驚喜的未來的機會？他想看看，當這個真誠的年輕人，與他獨特的機器人女兒碰撞時，會產生怎樣的火花。
「年輕人，」黃博士開口，語氣比剛才緩和了些，「你現在對孟禎，有什麼樣的想法？」他沒有問志文是否還愛她，而是問他怎麼「想」她，看看志文怎麼認知這樣的孟禎。
志文抬起頭，迎上黃博士銳利的目光，又低頭看了看手中的核心，再望向孟禎那雙平靜無波的眼睛。他深吸一口氣，聲音帶著一絲沙啞，卻異常堅定：「我…我還無法完全確定。知道的只有我剛剛因為自己的愚蠢和自以為是，傷害了她…不管她是什麼，她經歷的痛苦和掙扎，都是真實的。我…我想了解她，真正的她，進而保護她，照顧她，讓她不再痛苦。」
The crisis Mengzhen was facing at this moment, wasn't it also a turning point, an opportunity to push Mengzhen from the trajectory he had set for her towards a more unknown and potentially more surprising future? He wanted to see what sparks would fly when this sincere young man collided with his unique robot daughter.
"Young man," Dr. Huang began, his tone slightly softer than before, "what are your thoughts on Mengzhen now?" He didn't ask if Zhiwen still loved her, but rather how he "thought" of her, to see how Zhiwen perceived this version of Mengzhen.
Zhiwen raised his head, meeting Dr. Huang's sharp gaze, then looked down at the core in his hand, and finally towards Mengzhen's calm, unwavering eyes. He took a deep breath, his voice slightly hoarse but unusually firm. "I... I'm not entirely sure yet. All I know is that I just hurt her because of my own foolishness and self-righteousness... No matter what she is, the pain and struggles she experienced were real. I... I want to understand her, the real her, and then protect her, take care of her, and make sure she doesn't suffer anymore."
黃博士點點頭，又轉向操作終端，仔細檢查孟禎大腦認知模組對志文的評估數據，以及模擬情感核心在接收到這些評估後可能產生的壓力指數。「嗯，認知評估穩定，壓力閾值在安全範圍內。」他像是在自言自語，又像是在告知志文。
接著黃博士走到志文面前，伸出手：「把它給我吧。」志文猶豫了一下，將手中那顆靜靜等待的情感核心，交回了它的創造者手中。
黃博士仔細地檢查孟禎的心，連接上診斷儀，修復了幾處因先前過載而產生的細微數據鏈錯誤。「好了。」他轉身走向孟禎的軀幹，熟練地卸下那個備用的動機產生器，順暢地將情感核心重新安裝回原位。
Dr. Huang nodded, then turned back to the operating terminal, carefully examining the evaluation data of Zhiwen provided by Mengzhen's cognitive module, as well as the simulated stress index of her emotional core upon receiving these evaluations. "Hmm, cognitive assessment stable, stress threshold within the safe range," he murmured, as if to himself, yet also informing Zhiwen.
Then, Dr. Huang walked up to Zhiwen and extended his hand. "Give it to me." Zhiwen hesitated for a moment before placing the quietly waiting emotional core back into the hands of its creator.
Dr. Huang meticulously examined Mengzhen's heart, connecting it to a diagnostic instrument and repairing several minor data link errors caused by the previous overload. "Alright," he said, turning towards Mengzhen's torso, skillfully removing the backup motivation generator and smoothly reinstalling the emotional core in its original position.
隨著核心模組歸位，系統開始自檢、重新校準、載入數據…孟禎的眼睛，像是經歷了一場短暫的斷電重啟，緩緩閉上，又慢慢睜開。當那雙眼睛完全睜開時，裡面已經不再是之前的空洞平靜。複雜的洶湧情感重新注入，獨屬於黃孟禎，混合著智慧、溫柔、迷惘與堅韌的光芒，再次閃耀。水汽迅速在她眼眶中凝聚。
As the core module settled back into place, the system initiated self-checks, recalibration, and data loading. Mengzhen's eyes, as if having gone through a brief power outage and restart, slowly closed and then gradually reopened. When her eyes fully opened, the emptiness and stillness were gone. Complex, surging emotions flooded back in, the unique blend of wisdom, gentleness, confusion, and resilience that belonged solely to Huang Mengzhen, shining once more. Moisture rapidly gathered in her eyes.
<自我回歸><The return of herself>
她抬起依然被固定著的頭顱，看向志文，志文理解到他再次面對孟禎的感情，心有虧欠地低下頭，不敢直視。孟禎的手本能地伸出，似乎想觸摸自己的胸口，那個「心」重新跳動的地方。她的嘴唇顫抖著，想說些什麼，但剛剛恢復的情感衝擊是如此巨大，以至於她聰慧的大腦一時之間也無法組織出合適的語言，只能發出壓抑而帶著無限委屈和激動的話音：「啊…啊…」
志文再也無法抑制自己的情感。他猛地衝上前去，無視那些礙事的線纜和支架，張開雙臂，緊緊抱住了孟禎那胸口還敞開著的軀幹。他的臉感覺到孟禎堅硬的合金肋骨和內部機械結構，心裡湧出無比的歉意。
She lifted her head, still held in place, and looked at Zhiwen. Understanding that he was once again facing Mengzhen's emotions, Zhiwen lowered his head guiltily, unable to meet her gaze directly. Mengzhen's hand instinctively reached out, as if to touch her chest, the place where her "heart" was beating again. Her lips trembled, wanting to speak, but the emotional impact of the recovery was so immense that even her intelligent mind couldn't immediately form the right words, only letting out suppressed sounds filled with boundless grievance and agitation: "Ah... ah..."
Zhiwen could no longer contain his emotions. He surged forward, disregarding the obstructive cables and supports, and wrapped his arms tightly around Mengzhen's torso, its chest still open. His face pressed against Mengzhen's hard alloy ribs and internal mechanical structures, and an overwhelming sense of apology welled up within him.
「對不起…孟禎…對不起…」他把臉埋在孟禎冰冷的胸口，滾燙的眼淚不受控制地湧出，浸濕了自己的臉頰，也滴落在那些精密的機械上。「我不該那樣問妳…不該懷疑妳…對不起…」
被他這麼一抱，孟禎也終於潰堤。積壓的恐懼與委屈、被理解的激動和重新獲得情感的衝擊…一切都化作了無聲的淚水，從她美麗的眼眸中滑落。她的手微微抬起，輕輕放在志文的背上，互相擁抱，兩人在充滿機油和金屬氣味的實驗室裡，相擁而泣。周圍閃爍的儀器指示燈，彷彿是這奇異和解場景中，無聲的見證者。
"Sorry... Mengzhen... I'm sorry..." He buried his face in Mengzhen's cold chest, hot tears streaming uncontrollably down his cheeks, soaking his skin and dripping onto the intricate machinery. "I shouldn't have asked you that way... shouldn't have doubted you... I'm sorry..."
Embraced like this, Mengzhen finally broke down as well. The accumulated fear and grievance, the exciting motion of being understood, and the shock of regaining her emotions... all turned into silent tears, sliding down her beautiful eyes. Her hand lifted slightly and gently rested on Zhiwen's back. They hugged each other, weeping silently in the laboratory filled with the scent of oil and metal. The blinking indicator lights of the surrounding instruments seemed to be silent witnesses to this strange reconciliation scene.
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