高維真心 High Dimensional Sincerity
午後的中文研究所研究室裡，西湖龍井的清香淡淡縈繞。孟禎和志文下課後過來找凱琳，三人窩在堆滿書籍的角落隨意閒聊。不知不覺間，話題繞到了上次在鄉間散步時，偶遇那間老教堂躲雨的經歷。
孟禎和志文你一句我一句，說著當時從初談信仰時的微妙尷尬，到後來志文漸漸理解，甚至願意一起禱告的轉變。志文撓了撓頭，有些不好意思地總結：「怎麼說呢……雖然我還是不信，以後大概也不會信，但我好像有點明白了。那個信仰，對『孟禎之所以是孟禎』，挺重要的。」
凱琳慵懶地靠在椅背上，聽得興味盎然，嘴角掛著瞭然的微笑。她看得出來志文確實更成熟體貼，卻也敏銳地捕捉到他語氣裡一絲不易察覺的抗拒。
「志文，」凱琳端起茶杯，輕輕吹了口氣，語氣帶著洞悉一切的笑意，「你不單單是因為原則問題而不喜歡基督信仰吧？心底深處，是不是對自己的女朋友在另一種意義上『心有所屬』，感到有點不是滋味？」
志文像是被說中了心事，瞬間語塞。他張嘴想反駁，卻詞窮了，最後只能訥訥地點頭，聲音低了下去：「算是吧……我知道這樣很莫名其妙。」
The faint aroma of West Lake Dragon Well tea lingered in the afternoon air of the Chinese Studies graduate research office. After class, Meng Zhen and Zhiwen came to find Kailin, and the three of them huddled in a corner piled high with books, chatting idly. Before they knew it, the conversation had drifted to their experience of taking shelter from the rain in an old church they had stumbled upon during a walk in the countryside.
Meng Zhen and Zhiwen recounted the story, taking turns describing the subtle awkwardness when they first talked about faith, and how Zhiwen gradually came to understand, even becoming willing to pray with her. Zhiwen scratched his head, summarizing with some embarrassment, "How should I put it... Although I still don't believe, and probably never will, I think I kind of get it now. That faith... it's pretty important to 'what makes Meng Zhen, Meng Zhen'."
Kailin, leaning back lazily in her chair, listened with keen interest, a knowing smile playing on her lips. She could see that Zhiwen had indeed become more mature and considerate, but she also keenly detected a subtle trace of resistance in his tone.
"Zhiwen," Kailin said, lifting her teacup and gently blowing on it, her voice laced with an all-knowing smile, "it's not just a matter of principle that makes you dislike Christianity, is it? Deep down, does it bother you, just a little, that your girlfriend's heart 'belongs' to someone else in another sense?"
As if his innermost thoughts had been exposed, Zhiwen was speechless. He opened his mouth to object but found himself at a loss for words. Finally, he could only nod meekly, his voice dropping. "I guess so... I know it's completely irrational."
孟禎聞言，輕輕握住志文的手，臉上帶著體貼的笑意：「我懂的。你在意我的事情可多了，而且都是些難以啟齒的彆扭。沒關係的，反正情況就是這樣。你也不是存心要介意，只是遇到特定情境，情緒就藏不住了。」
志文嘆了口氣，試著梳理自己的思緒：「我知道這有點……該怎麼說，總之是我自己需要調整的心態。而且說真的，當初妳還在教會、熱心參與團契時，我就喜歡上妳了。從一開始，我喜歡上的就是這個……身為基督徒的女孩。」
孟禎噗哧一笑，毫不留情地戳破：「不盡然吧？你明明是先遇到我，追求過程中才發現我是基督徒，然後一臉無奈地『接受』這個事實，對不對？」她狡黠地眨眨眼，「就像後來發現我還是個機器人時，內心天人交戰了好一陣子，最後因為已經陷進去，只好認命。」
志文被說得耳根發熱，趕緊打哈哈掩飾：「呃…這個…確實有過那些糾結啦…但是！現在已經越來越少，程度也輕微多了！」
凱琳看著兩人互動，笑著加入戰局：「其實像你這樣的大男孩，情感模式往往很矛盾——喜歡裡夾雜著介意，排斥中又隱隱被吸引。別看你嘴上說不認同基督教，說不定潛意識裡，反而被孟禎身上那種『信徒』特質所吸引呢！」
Hearing this, Meng Zhen gently squeezed Zhiwen's hand, her face full of understanding. "I get it. You worry about so many things when it comes to me, and they're all those hard-to-admit, awkward feelings. It's okay. It is what it is. It's not like you mean to feel this way; it's just that in certain situations, the emotions bubble up."
Zhiwen sighed, trying to sort out his thoughts. "I know this is something... how to say it... something I need to work on. And honestly, I fell for you back when you were still active in the church, deeply involved in your fellowship. From the very beginning, the person I fell for was this... Christian girl."
Meng Zhen let out a giggle, mercilessly puncturing his narrative. "Not entirely, right? You clearly met me first, only discovered I was a Christian while you were pursuing me, and then 'accepted' this fact with a look of resignation, didn't you?" She gave a sly wink. "Just like when you later found out I was a robot and wrestled with it for a good while, only to resign yourself to fate because you were already in too deep."
Zhiwen's ears burned. He tried to laugh it off. "Uh... well... there was some of that inner conflict... but! It happens much less now, and it's a lot milder!"
Watching their interaction, Kailin laughingly joined the fray. "Actually, for a big boy like you, emotional patterns are often contradictory—your affection is mixed with reservations, and your rejection contains a hidden fascination. Don't listen to what you say about not agreeing with Christianity. Who knows, subconsciously, you might be drawn to that very 'believer' quality in Meng Zhen!"
孟禎立刻笑嘻嘻地附和：「對啊，我早就發現了！以前他勉強陪我去教堂時，表情可精彩了——表面故作平靜，細看卻能發現糾結與否定底下，每次見我祈禱或唱詩時，總會閃過一絲『被萌到』的神情。」
志文的耳尖瞬間紅透。凱琳趁勝追擊，生動地描繪：「不難想像啊。孟禎溫柔善良，虔誠祈禱時就像靜坐在雲端的天使，眼神清澈，期盼著聖靈降臨。我可愛的妹妹這副模樣，要『煞到』內心彆扭的志文弟弟，還不是手到擒來？」
Meng Zhen immediately chimed in with a grin, "Exactly, I noticed that ages ago! Back when he would reluctantly accompany me to church, his expression was priceless. On the surface, he'd pretend to be calm, but if you looked closely, beneath the struggle and denial, every time he saw me pray or sing hymns, there was always a flash of 'that's so cute' in his eyes."
The tips of Zhiwen's ears turned crimson. Kailin pressed her advantage, painting a vivid picture. "It's not hard to imagine. Meng Zhen is gentle and kind, and when she prays devoutly, she's like an angel sitting peacefully on a cloud, her eyes clear, awaiting the Holy Spirit. For a sweet little sister of mine like this to capture the heart of our conflicted little brother Zhiwen, it's a piece of cake, isn't it?"
「是啦是啦…」志文像是放棄抵抗般舉手投降，「管他什麼教義不教義的，那樣專注祈禱的孟禎，確實有種…獨特的氣質，我看了…是會忍不住心動。只是…」
「只是什麼？」孟禎好奇地追問，眼裡閃著狡黠的光，隨即又笑著補上一句：「對了，得先謝謝你的心動喔，我的小彆扭男友。」
志文深吸一口氣，像是鼓足勇氣般，用他特有的「機械系」比喻試圖描述那份矛盾：「這麼說吧，有時候我會覺得...當妳完全沉浸在信仰中時，就好像...好像妳胸口的維修蓋板被打開了，裡面的核心組件被什麼東西取走了，只留下一個空殼給我...」他急忙擺手補充：「我知道事實根本不是這樣！這只是我腦子裡冒出來的奇怪感覺！但更矛盾的是，我好像...又有點迷戀那樣狀態的妳？」
"Alright, alright..." Zhiwen surrendered, raising his hands as if giving up the fight. "Forget about doctrines and all that. When Meng Zhen is praying with such focus, she does have this... unique quality. When I see it... I can't help but feel my heart skip a beat. It's just..."
"Just what?" Meng Zhen asked curiously, a mischievous glint in her eyes, before adding with a smile, "Oh, and thanks for the heart-skipping, by the way, my dear awkward boyfriend."
Zhiwen took a deep breath, as if mustering his courage, and tried to describe the contradiction using his unique "mechanical engineering" metaphor. "Let's put it this way. Sometimes I feel like... when you're completely immersed in your faith, it's as if... as if the maintenance hatch on your chest has been opened, and the core components inside have been taken out by something, leaving just an empty shell for me..." He quickly waved his hands to clarify, "I know that's not what's actually happening! It's just a weird feeling that pops into my head! But what's even more contradictory is that I think... I'm also a little captivated by you in that state?"
這個出乎意料的比喻讓孟禎怔住了，一旁的凱琳卻忍不住笑出聲來。「一點也不奇怪，志文弟弟！」她笑夠後，擺出學者的姿態，「讓凱琳姊姊來給你們上一堂人生課吧。」
她的手指在空中劃出看不見的軌跡：「人的內心狀態，就像存在於一個超高維度空間中的點，需要無數個座標才能準確描述。」她故意停頓，看著兩人困惑卻專注的表情，繼續解釋：「所以對同一件事——比如『孟禎是基督徒』——在你內心產生的影響，根本無法用單一的『喜歡』或『不喜歡』來衡量。你的感受會投影在多個維度上：吸引、不安、尊重、嫉妒、好奇...這些複雜的座標共同構成了你真實的感受。懂了嗎？」
孟禎靜靜聽著，心中湧起一股難以言喻的暖意。凱琳總能用最精準、最冷靜的語言，剖開他們之間最模糊、最溫熱的情感癥結。而志文，這個傻氣的男孩，竟是用這樣笨拙而又如此貼切的比喻，來形容他對自己的在意與不安。她覺得自己何其有幸，能同時被這兩種截然不同卻又同樣真誠的溫柔所包圍。
倒是志文聽得一頭霧水，感覺腦子快要過載。「什麼...什麼意思？」他問道。
「簡單說，」凱琳一語道破，「別再逼自己把那些亂七八糟的感受分門別類了。放輕鬆，好好享受和孟禎相處的每一刻才是正經。真正的心靈空間從來不是平坦的——有點扭曲，有點彆扭，這才真實！」
This unexpected metaphor stunned Meng Zhen, but Kailin, beside her, couldn't help but laugh out loud. "That's not strange at all, little brother Zhiwen!" After she had her laugh, she adopted a scholarly posture. "Let Sister Kailin teach you a life lesson."
Her finger traced invisible patterns in the air. "A person's inner state is like a point in a super-high-dimensional space, requiring countless coordinates to be accurately described." She paused deliberately, watching their confused yet focused expressions, before continuing. "So, the effect of a single thing—like 'Meng Zhen is a Christian'—on your heart can't be measured by a simple 'like' or 'dislike.' Your feelings are projected onto multiple dimensions: attraction, unease, respect, jealousy, curiosity... All these complex coordinates together constitute your true feelings. Got it?"
Meng Zhen listened quietly, an indescribable warmth welling up inside her. Kailin always had a way of using the most precise, calm language to dissect the most ambiguous, heartfelt knots in their relationship. And Zhiwen, this goofy boy, had used such a clumsy yet fitting metaphor to describe his care and anxiety for her. She felt incredibly fortunate to be enveloped by two kinds of gentleness that were so different, yet equally sincere.
Zhiwen, however, was completely lost, his brain on the verge of overloading. "What... what does that mean?" he asked.
"Simply put," Kailin said, cutting to the chase, "stop forcing yourself to categorize all those messy feelings. Relax. The important thing is to enjoy every moment with Meng Zhen. A true mental space is never flat—a little twisted, a little awkward, that's what makes it real!"
看著志文頭頂彷彿冒出的無數問號，孟禎忍俊不禁地拍拍他的肩，用更直白的話翻譯：「凱琳姊的意思是，接納你所有的感受就好。我不會再因為你的『介意』而介意了。」說著，她突然「咔」地輕響，熟練地打開胸腔的維修蓋板，露出裡面精密的組件，帶著惡作劇的笑容說：「你看，最重要的零件都好好待在這裡呢。要親自確認一下嗎？」
志文看著孟禎坦率中帶著戲謔的動作，露出釋然的苦笑……他伸出手，沒有去觸碰那些精密的組件，而是輕輕地、溫柔地，幫她將維修蓋板『咔』地一聲合上，然後將自己的手掌，覆蓋在那個位置。那些精密的組件，仿佛透過包覆核心的外殼，向他的手掌傳遞著溫度。原來「確認存在」不需要打開任何蓋板，只需要一個貼合的掌心。
志文抬起頭，看著她的眼睛，認真地說：「嗯，確認過了。都在呢。不只在你那裡，也在我這裡。」他長吁一口氣，「好啦，我認輸了，徹底輸給你們兩姊妹……」志文眼中突然閃過一抹調皮，「不過凱琳姊，妳這麼懂，想必王大哥也被妳分析得很透徹吧？他知道自己活在妳的幾維空間裡嗎？」
「好哇，你小子，反過來挑戰我是吧？」凱琳笑罵，「孟禎，幫我一把！抓住他，今天要來好好地給他『強化教育』一下。」
研究室裡充斥著志文的討饒聲。經過凱琳這番「高維度」的開導和孟禎直接的「驗證」，他好像抓住了一點感覺——或許不需要急著消除那份彆扭，而是在與這個特別女孩相伴的旅程中，慢慢品味這份獨一無二的複雜情感，才是最好的相處之道。
Seeing the countless question marks seemingly popping up over Zhiwen's head, Meng Zhen couldn't help but pat his shoulder and translate in plainer terms. "What Sister Kailin means is, just accept all your feelings. I won't be bothered by your 'reservations' anymore." As she spoke, with a soft click, she expertly opened the maintenance hatch on her chest, revealing the intricate components within. With a mischievous smile, she said, "See? The most important parts are all right here. Want to confirm it yourself?"
Zhiwen looked at Meng Zhen's frank yet playful action and gave a resigned, wry smile... He reached out, not to touch those delicate components, but to gently and tenderly help her close the maintenance hatch with another click. Then, he placed his palm over the spot. It was as if the intricate components were transmitting their warmth to his hand through the core's outer shell. He realized that "confirming existence" didn't require opening any hatches—just the press of a palm.
Zhiwen looked up into her eyes and said earnestly, "Mmm, confirmed. It's all there. Not just in you, but here in me, too." He let out a long breath. "Alright, I give up. I've completely lost to you two sisters..." A playful spark suddenly appeared in Zhiwen's eyes. "But Sister Kailin, since you're such an expert, I bet Brother Wang has been thoroughly analyzed by you too, right? Does he know how many dimensions he lives in within your space?"
"Oh, you little punk, turning the tables on me, are you?" Kailin scolded with a laugh. "Meng Zhen, give me a hand! Grab him, we need to give him some 'intensive education' today."
The research office filled with Zhiwen's pleas for mercy. After Kailin's "high-dimensional" enlightenment and Meng Zhen's direct "verification," he felt he was starting to grasp it—perhaps he didn't need to rush to eliminate that awkward feeling. Perhaps the best way forward was to slowly savor this uniquely complex emotion on the journey with this special girl.
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此非吾體 This Is Not My Body
自從上次與凱琳那場關於「高維度心靈」的談話後，孟禎對她和志文之間那種微妙的「彆扭」互動，有了更深的體會與把握。她意識到，與其試圖消除志文那些小小的介意，不如理解並容許他在心中保留這個可以「玩彆扭遊戲」的空間。她甚至發現，可以適度地、帶著愛意地「調戲」一下他的這種彆扭。正因為志文面對自我的態度足夠坦誠，這樣的互動反而成了增進了解、深入彼此內心的獨特相處方式，讓他們的關係超越了單純的戀愛博弈，更像是攜手探索內在複雜度的夥伴。
某個假日上午，陽光灑滿黃博士宅邸的客廳。志文早已準備就緒，正等著孟禎完成她的「約會前準備」。
「志文，過來一下。」客廳中傳來孟禎的呼喚。
志文應聲走去，卻看到一幅奇特的景象：孟禎的頭部仍架在專用充電座上，進行著頭部備用電池的最後充電，而她的身體卻不見蹤影。
「你的身體呢？我以為你都準備好了。」志文疑惑地問道，雖然習慣了女友時不時的分體維護，但通常不會選在外出前。
Ever since that conversation with Kailin about the "high-dimensional heart," Meng Zhen had gained a deeper understanding and grasp of the subtle, "awkward" dynamic between herself and Zhiwen. She realized that rather than trying to eliminate Zhiwen's minor reservations, it was better to understand and allow him to keep this space in his heart for their "game of awkwardness." She even found that she could, with affection, moderately "tease" him about it. Because Zhiwen was honest enough with himself, this interaction became a unique way to deepen their understanding of each other, allowing their relationship to transcend simple romantic games and become more like a partnership in exploring the complexities of their inner worlds.
One Saturday morning, sunlight filled the living room of Dr. Huang's mansion. Zhiwen was ready to go, waiting for Meng Zhen to finish her "pre-date preparations."
"Zhiwen, come here for a second," Meng Zhen's voice called from the living room.
Zhiwen walked over, only to be met with a peculiar sight: Meng Zhen's head was still mounted on its special charging dock, undergoing a final charge for its backup battery, but her body was nowhere to be seen.
"Where's your body? I thought you were all ready," Zhiwen asked, confused. While he was used to his girlfriend's occasional detached maintenance, she usually didn't choose to do it right before going out.
「等一下嘛～」孟禎的頭笑嘻嘻地說，眼神閃爍著惡作劇的光芒，「別忘了，我除了是機器人，還是個女孩子。出門前可不止需要機體檢修，」她故意拉長了語調，「身體還在房間里進行『女孩子的那種準備』哦。現在要出來咯！」
話音剛落，臥室門緩緩打開。一股濃郁嬌媚的玫瑰香氣率先飄出，緊接著，志文看見孟禎那具無頭的軀體，正以一種略顯刻意、卻搖曳生姿的步伐走了出來。
「唔，你還噴了香水？這身打扮……怎麽和平常感覺完全不一樣？」志文挑起眉，直覺告訴他事情並不單純。
眼前的這具軀體，的確與往常大相逕庭。它套著一件短版設計的灰色針織上衣，下擺短得露出了線條緊實的小腹；左胸口點綴著一朵絲絨質地的黑玫瑰裝飾，散發著若有若無的危險魅力。下半身更是驚人，一條極貼身的亮面皮質打底褲，折射出平日絕難在孟禎身上看到的張揚光澤；腳上那雙厚底粗跟、布滿鉚釘的羅馬涼鞋，更是毫不掩飾地宣示著狂野的個性。
"Just a minute~" Meng Zhen's head said with a cheerful grin, her eyes twinkling with mischief. "Don't forget, besides being a robot, I'm also a girl. Getting ready to go out involves more than just a system check-up." She deliberately drew out her words. "The body is still in the room, undergoing 'a girl's kind of preparation.' It's coming out now!"
As she spoke, the bedroom door slowly opened. A rich, alluring scent of roses wafted out first. Then, Zhiwen saw Meng Zhen's headless torso walk out with a gait that was slightly deliberate yet full of swaying grace.
"Whoa, you even put on perfume? And this outfit... why does it feel completely different from your usual self?" Zhiwen raised an eyebrow, his intuition telling him something was up.
The body before him was indeed a world apart from her usual style. It wore a gray knit crop top, the hem short enough to reveal a toned midriff. A black velvet rose was pinned to the left side of her chest, exuding a subtle, dangerous charm. The lower half was even more startling: a pair of extremely tight, glossy pleather leggings that reflected a bold sheen rarely seen on Meng Zhen. On her feet were thick-soled, block-heeled Roman sandals covered in studs, unabashedly proclaiming a wild personality.
志文忍不住皺起眉頭，在腦海中將孟禎那張帶著溫和書卷氣的臉，與眼前這具火辣軀體「合體」想像了一下。這強烈的反差感，與他所熟悉的那個溫婉端莊的孟禎，實在相差太遠。
他轉過頭，望向仍在充電座上的孟禎的頭，用眼神發出無聲的疑問。孟禎臉上露出得意洋洋的表情，說：「就知道你會是這種反應。怎麽樣？這就是等一下要被我帶出門，陪在你身邊的『身體』。大開眼界吧！」
「這跟你平常的風格，差太多了吧！」志文直言不諱。
「是呀，『平常的風格』，也是你熟悉且喜歡的那個『我』的風格，」孟禎從容回應，「就像你最初在學校遇見的，那個手捧哲學原文書、穿著素色長裙，走在校園大道的我。」
「是沒錯，但那也確實是你真實的樣子，不是嗎？」志文反問。
「對，那的確是我，但我也不想把自己永遠鎖定在單一的形象裡，」孟禎解釋道，語氣帶著探究的意味，「而且，我更好奇的是，我究竟是以『什麽樣的方式』被你喜歡著的。志文，我猜，你喜歡的那個『我』，某種程度上，是你心中覺得能夠『放心去喜歡』的形象吧？」
「什麼意思？」志文有些不解。
「我想，你心裡或許有個『理想女友』的模板——溫婉、端莊、有書卷氣，是你覺得喜歡起來安心、不會有負擔的形象。彷彿這樣的對象，才配得上你付出的真心。」孟禎娓娓分析，眼神帶著洞察的慧黠。
Zhiwen couldn't help but frown as he mentally "attached" Meng Zhen's gentle, scholarly face to the fiery body before him. The stark contrast was a far cry from the graceful and demure Meng Zhen he knew.
He turned to look at Meng Zhen's head, still on the charging dock, and sent a silent, questioning gaze. A triumphant expression appeared on Meng Zhen's face. "I knew you'd react like this. What do you think? This is the 'body' that I'll be taking out with me, to be by your side. An eye-opener, isn't it!"
"This is way too different from your usual style!" Zhiwen said bluntly.
"It is. 'My usual style' is also the style of the 'me' you're familiar with and fond of," Meng Zhen replied calmly. "Like the girl you first met at school, holding a philosophy original, wearing a plain long skirt, walking down the campus boulevard."
"That's true, but that's also the real you, isn't it?" Zhiwen retorted.
"Yes, that is me, but I don't want to be locked into a single image forever," Meng Zhen explained, her tone probing. "Besides, I'm more curious about how exactly you like me. Zhiwen, I'm guessing that the 'me' you like is, to some extent, an image you feel 'safe' to like, right?"
"What do you mean?" Zhiwen was a bit puzzled.
"I think you might have a template for an 'ideal girlfriend' in your mind—gentle, dignified, scholarly. An image you feel at ease with, one that doesn't feel like a burden to love. As if only such a person is worthy of your sincere affection," Meng Zhen analyzed gently, her eyes sharp with insight.
「這個……嗯……可能有一點點吧，但真的沒那麼嚴重……」志文試圖辯解，語氣卻透著心虛。
「沒關係的，志文。」孟禎語氣轉為溫柔，帶著理解的笑意，「我想說的是，人心如何受吸引，遠比我們自認為的複雜。你不只會被自己『認可』的特質吸引，也會不自覺地被那些『覺得不該喜歡』的特質打動。就像我們逛街時，你的目光總會悄悄飄向打扮像我今天這樣風格的女孩。」
「哪有！就、就只是隨便看看，欣賞一下不同風格而已……」志文急忙轉開視線，耳根微微發紅。
「被吸引又不是什麼丟臉的事，」孟禎笑得眼睛彎彎，「所以今天特地讓你體驗一下『不一樣的孟禎』。你可不許彆扭哦！這可是你正牌女友，不管什麼模樣，你都該坦然喜歡。來吧，電充得差不多了，幫我把頭裝上。『孟禎女王』，登場！」
"Well... umm... maybe a little, but it's really not that serious..." Zhiwen tried to argue, but his tone betrayed his lack of confidence.
"It's okay, Zhiwen," Meng Zhen's voice softened into an understanding smile. "What I'm trying to say is, how the human heart is attracted is far more complex than we think. You're not just drawn to traits you 'approve' of; you're also unconsciously moved by traits you 'feel you shouldn't like.' Just like when we're out shopping, your eyes always sneak a glance at girls dressed in the style I'm wearing today."
"No way! I was... I was just looking around, appreciating different styles..." Zhiwen quickly looked away, the tips of his ears turning slightly red.
"There's no shame in being attracted," Meng Zhen said, her eyes curving into crescents. "So today, I'm giving you a special chance to experience a 'different Meng Zhen.' No awkwardness allowed! This is your official girlfriend, and you should love her openly, no matter what she looks like. Come on, the charge is almost done. Help me put my head on. Time for 'Queen Meng Zhen' to make her entrance!"
志文手忙腳亂地取下她的頭，對準頸部接口小心安裝。隨著「咔噠」一聲輕響，孟禎眨了眨眼，試著活動身體。那條閃亮的皮褲和鉚釘鞋讓她走起路來格外彆扭，沒幾步就突然蹲下抱膝，把臉埋進臂彎裡。
「啊啊啊！果然還是……好不習慣呀！不行不行！太羞恥了！全身都不對勁！」她悶聲嚷著，剛才的女王氣勢瞬間消散。
志文看著她這副模樣，忍不住笑出聲，他蹲下身，牽住孟禎的手，將她扶起，語帶調侃地說：「看吧，光會說我。妳自己心裡，不也有一個『標準版孟禎』形象嗎？」
孟禎轉過頭來看他——她的頭幾乎轉了一百八十度，畫面頗為驚悚。「真的！這身體好像不是我的了！不只是換衣服，簡直像換了具身體，所有感知都變得好陌生！」她悶聲嚷道：「而且這條褲子的材質回饋數據太奇怪了！彈性係數和表面摩擦力都和我資料庫裡『舒適』的定義相差甚遠！鞋子的重心和力矩也完全不對，我的步態平衡模組一直在發出警告！這不是我的身體在走路，是這身衣服在拖著我走！」
「喂！妳頭轉到都不像人類啦！又不是貓頭鷹！」志文嚷道，「好啦好啦，別再找理由了。就我看，簡直是你的頭在拒絕這個身體。」
「感覺被你說中了！要不要換回原來的樣子？」她小聲問道，語氣透露出動搖。
Zhiwen fumbled to detach her head and carefully aligned it with the neck interface. With a soft click, Meng Zhen blinked and tried to move her body. The shiny pleather pants and studded shoes made her walk with extreme awkwardness. After just a few steps, she suddenly crouched down, hugged her knees, and buried her face in her arms.
"Ahhh! I really... can't get used to this! No, no! It's too embarrassing! My whole body feels wrong!" she mumbled, her queenly aura instantly vanishing.
Seeing her like this, Zhiwen couldn't help but laugh. He squatted down, took her hand, and helped her up. "See? And you were lecturing me. Don't you have a 'standard version of Meng Zhen' in your own mind?" he teased.
Meng Zhen turned her head to look at him—her head rotated almost a full one hundred and eighty degrees, creating a rather startling image. "It's true! This body doesn't feel like mine anymore! It's not just changing clothes; it's like I've swapped bodies. All my senses feel so alien!" she grumbled. "And the feedback data from this pant material is so weird! The elasticity coefficient and surface friction are worlds away from the definition of 'comfortable' in my database! The shoes' center of gravity and torque are all wrong, my gait-balancing module is sending constant warnings! It's not my body walking; these clothes are dragging me along!"
"Hey! Your head is turning so much you don't even look human! You're not an owl!" Zhiwen exclaimed. "Alright, alright, stop making excuses. From where I'm standing, it looks like your head is rejecting this body."
"I think you're right! Should we change back?" she asked in a small voice, her resolve wavering.
「不了！」志文這次卻笑得很開心，甚至帶著點「不懷好意」的得意，「就這樣，我們出門吧！」他打量了一下孟禎這身前所未見的打扮，特別是那條緊緊貼著她雙腿閃閃發光的皮褲，補充道：「說起來，妳這麼一搞，還讓我白賺到了。」
「什麼意思？」孟禎不解。
「賺到一場『虛擬外遇』啊！」志文笑嘻嘻地說，「感覺好像是跟另一個野性艷麗的大姊姊約會呢！謝啦，孟禎！」
「啊！你欠打！」孟禎嗔罵道，臉上卻泛起一絲不易察覺的紅暈，「那等一下上街，我可要一直緊緊挽著你，你不准有任何一點點排斥或不好意思喔！不然我會很傷心的。不管我是什麼模樣，你都要喜歡，記住了嗎？」
「知道啦，」志文笑著握緊她的手，目光掃過她一身俗又有力的裝扮，「說不定以後該常讓你嘗試新造型呢。準備好接受改造了吧，我的百變女友！」
孟禎一邊緊抓著他，一邊小聲嘀咕：「你、你別得意！這次是我沒準備好……下次，下次我會讓你看看，什麼才是真正的『百變』！」
"Nope!" This time, Zhiwen's smile was wide and even a little mischievous. "Just like this. Let's go!" He sized up Meng Zhen's unprecedented outfit, especially the tight, shimmering pleather pants clinging to her legs, and added, "You know, by doing this, you've given me a nice little bonus."
"What do you mean?" Meng Zhen asked, confused.
"I get to have a 'virtual affair'!" Zhiwen said with a grin. "It feels like I'm on a date with some other wild, glamorous woman! Thanks, Meng Zhen!"
"Ah! You're asking for it!" Meng Zhen chided, though a faint blush appeared on her cheeks. "In that case, when we're out, I'm going to hold onto your arm tightly, and you're not allowed to show the slightest bit of rejection or embarrassment! Or I'll be very sad. No matter what I look like, you have to love me, got it?"
"I know, I know," Zhiwen said, squeezing her hand, his eyes scanning her flashy outfit. "Maybe we should have you try new styles more often. Get ready for a makeover, my versatile girlfriend!"
As she clung to him, Meng Zhen muttered under her breath, "Don't... don't get too cocky! I just wasn't prepared this time... Next time, next time I'll show you what 'versatile' really means!"
當他們終於走上街頭，原本打算「調教」男友的孟禎，反而緊張地拉住志文的手，腳步帶著幾分遲疑。志文感受著掌心傳來的力度，心裡暗自好笑：本想捉弄別人，結果先把自己給難倒了呢！
他打量著孟禎……雖然嘴上調侃，但他心底深處，卻被眼前這個介於熟悉與陌生之間的奇妙形象，結結實實地驚豔了一下。原來他氣質好的女友，也能駕馭這樣的形象。強烈的反差感，竟讓他目眩起來。
這場約會雖然充滿笑鬧與尷尬，卻也格外真實。或許正是這樣充滿嘗試、包容與相互調侃的相處方式，才是最適合這對特別情侶的戀愛模樣。您說是不是？
When they finally stepped out onto the street, Meng Zhen, who had intended to "train" her boyfriend, found herself nervously clinging to Zhiwen's hand, her steps hesitant. Feeling the pressure in his palm, Zhiwen chuckled to himself. She tried to play a trick on him, but ended up tripping over herself first.
He looked at Meng Zhen... Despite his teasing, deep down, he was genuinely stunned by this strange and wonderful image, hovering somewhere between the familiar and the foreign. It turned out his elegant girlfriend could pull off such a look. The intense contrast was almost dizzying.
Though filled with laughter and awkwardness, the date was exceptionally real. Perhaps this way of being—full of experimentation, acceptance, and mutual teasing—was the perfect kind of love for this very special couple. Wouldn't you agree?
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愛出多門 Love Through Many Doors
形式邏輯課的下課鈴聲響起，教室頓時被收拾書本的窣窣聲和同學們的談笑填滿。孟禎和志文仍坐在原處，討論著課堂上一個關於命題邏輯的難點。
「所以，如果『P蘊含Q』為真，且『非Q』為真，則必然能推出『非P』為真，這就是拒取律的核心應用……」志文認真地分析著。
「正確。此推理形式具有有效性，因其確保了在前提為真的條件下，結論不可能為假。」孟禎流暢地接話，但她的語氣突然變得異常平穩、標準，不帶絲毫情緒起伏，眼神也瞬間失焦了片刻——活脫脫像個高性能卻缺乏溫度的大語言模型。
志文立刻察覺到這微妙的變化。他停下講解，疑惑地看向女友。他不知道的是，此刻孟禎的內部系統運作正被切割為二。一方顯現王文興焦慮的臉龐，她的人際互動模擬模組正以每秒數萬次的運算頻率，生成溫和而關心的語氣與安撫的微笑以回應；而另一邊，她將主要的邏輯核心對準了眼前的男友，準確高效地處理著他關於『拒取律』的分析，只是暫時關閉了非必要的語氣渲染子程序。一陣子後，孟禎臉上重新綻放出燦爛的笑容，眼神恢復靈動。
「……剛才那是怎麼了？」志文問道，感覺像是目睹了一次系統的短暫切換。
1The bell signaling the end of Formal Logic class rang, and the room instantly filled with the rustle of packing books and the chatter of students. Meng Zhen and Zhiwen remained in their seats, discussing a difficult point about propositional logic from the lecture.
"So, if 'P implies Q' is true, and 'not Q' is true, then we can necessarily deduce that 'not P' is true. That's the core application of modus tollens..." Zhiwen analyzed earnestly.
"Correct. This form of reasoning is valid because it ensures that if the premises are true, the conclusion cannot be false," Meng Zhen replied fluently. But her tone suddenly became unnaturally flat and standard, devoid of any emotional inflection, and her eyes lost focus for a moment—she was exactly like a high-performance but cold large language model.
Zhiwen immediately noticed the subtle shift. He stopped his explanation and looked at his girlfriend with confusion. What he didn't know was that at that moment, Meng Zhen's internal system was split in two. On one side, the anxious face of Wang Wenxing was displayed, and her interpersonal interaction simulation module was running at tens of thousands of cycles per second to generate a gentle, caring tone and a soothing smile in response. On the other side, she had aimed her main logic core at her boyfriend, processing his analysis of modus tollens with precision and efficiency, having temporarily shut down the non-essential tone-rendering subroutines. After a moment, a radiant smile returned to Meng Zhen's face, and the light came back into her eyes.
"...What was that just now?" Zhiwen asked, feeling as if he had just witnessed a brief system switch.
孟禎掩嘴輕笑，略帶歉意地說：「被你發現啦？沒有啦，剛剛王大哥來電，又再跟我講他跟凱琳姊的事。我只好在內部系統裡與他視頻通話，還得實時生成自然的表情和語音流給他。一心二用，不容易呢~」
志文聽了，心裡泛起一絲難以言喻的酸意，語氣不由得帶上了點醋味：「那真是辛苦你了。難怪妳剛剛回應我的感覺，冷冰冰的像個AI。看來還是王董的通訊更重要，需要優先分配算力是吧？」
孟禎笑得更開了，伸手戳戳他的臉頰：「拜託~你計較個什麼勁啊？還吃醋了。不過我要鄭重澄清，」她收起玩笑，認真地說：「「剛才回答你的是我本尊的電子腦，可不是把問題丟給雲端AI。雖然語氣機械，但內容可是充滿誠意的！系統資源特意為鬧別扭的『男友君』留了一份呢！」
志文仍有些耿耿於懷：「那王董到底說了什麽大事，值得你分配更多系統資源？」
「別把溫暖的人際關係說得像冷淡的資源調度嘛。」孟禎柔聲嗔怪，「他不是正為抓不住凱琳姐這樣的獨特女孩而苦惱嗎？就來找我這個『鏡像姊妹』求助。其實，」她語氣一轉，「以凱琳姐的聰慧和直率，她不會故意刁難人。王大哥只要坦然相處就好。」
Meng Zhen covered her mouth and giggled, saying apologetically, "You noticed? Oh, it was nothing. Brother Wang called just now, going on about his issues with Sister Kailin again. I had to hold a video call with him in my internal system and generate natural expressions and speech for him in real-time. Multitasking isn't easy, you know~"
Hearing this, a strange sourness rose in Zhiwen's heart, and his tone couldn't help but become a little jealous. "That must be tough for you. No wonder your response to me just now was so cold, like an AI. I guess Chairman Wang's call was more important and deserved priority processing power, huh?"
Meng Zhen's smile widened, and she reached out to poke his cheek. "Oh, come on~ What are you getting worked up about? You're jealous. But I must clarify," she said, dropping the playful tone and becoming serious, "the one who answered you just now was my actual electronic brain, I didn't just toss your question to a cloud AI. The tone might have been mechanical, but the content was full of sincerity! I specifically reserved system resources for my sulking 'boyfriend-kun'!"
Zhiwen was still a bit bothered. "So what was so important that Chairman Wang had to say that it deserved more of your system resources?"
"Don't talk about warm human relationships like it's cold resource allocation," Meng Zhen chided softly. "He's just frustrated because he can't quite get a handle on a unique girl like Sister Kailin, so he came to me, her 'mirror-image sister,' for help. Actually," she changed her tone, "with Sister Kailin's intelligence and directness, she wouldn't deliberately make things difficult for him. Brother Wang just needs to be himself around her."
「是這樣喔……」志文語氣一轉，帶上了幾許試探的意味，「對了，孟禎，其實……妳也挺喜歡王大哥的吧？」
「喜歡啊，」孟禎出乎意料地坦率承認，「喜歡到都甘願承認他是我『主人』了。我可不是單純為了戲弄他才這麼叫的。」她頓了頓，看著志文微微變化的表情，語氣一轉，壓低聲音，帶著調皮的狡黠：「不過呢，這樣的喜歡是廣義上的——其實你想知道的，是這份喜歡裡，是否夾雜著類似愛情的成分，對吧？」
心思被直接點破，志文的臉瞬間紅了起來，他有些窘迫地說：「對啦對啦……我承認王董他人真的蠻棒，而且……他以前還喜歡過妳。妳對他也很上心，我這樣……還不怎麼成熟的大學男生，會忍不住想東想西，很正常吧？」
孟禎露出一個「果然如此」的微妙笑容，安撫地拍拍他的手：「很正常啊，志文。我不打算遮掩什麼，直接回答你：是的，我對王大哥的喜歡，確實帶有些類似愛情的成分。」
「啊啊……我就知道……」志文像是洩了氣的皮球，趴在桌上，顯得垂頭喪氣。
「別這麽在意嘛，」孟禎彎下腰，湊近志文的臉，認真地看著他，「而且不只王大哥，我對我親愛的凱琳姐姐，感情里也摻雜著類似愛情的成分。其實，我相信他們兩位對我的喜愛，同樣包含著近似愛情的情感。我們之間的關系，本來就不是簡單標簽能定義的。」
"Is that so..." Zhiwen's tone shifted again, becoming more probing. "By the way, Meng Zhen, you... you're quite fond of Brother Wang too, aren't you?"
"I am," Meng Zhen admitted with surprising frankness. "Fond enough to willingly call him my 'Master.' I don't just call him that to tease him." She paused, watching the subtle change in Zhiwen's expression, then lowered her voice with playful cunning. "However, this fondness is in a broad sense. What you really want to know is whether this fondness contains elements similar to romantic love, right?"
His thoughts laid bare, Zhiwen's face flushed. "Yeah, yeah... I admit Chairman Wang is a great guy, and... he used to have a crush on you. You care about him a lot, too. For a not-so-mature college guy like me, it's normal to let my mind wander, right?"
Meng Zhen gave a subtle "I knew it" smile and patted his hand reassuringly. "It's perfectly normal, Zhiwen. I'm not going to hide anything. I'll answer you directly: yes, my fondness for Brother Wang does contain elements similar to romantic love."
"Ah... I knew it..." Zhiwen deflated like a popped balloon, slumping onto the desk in despair.
"Don't take it so hard," Meng Zhen said, leaning down close to his face and looking at him seriously. "And it's not just Brother Wang. My feelings for my dear Sister Kailin also have elements of romantic love mixed in. In fact, I believe both of their affections for me contain feelings akin to love as well. Our relationships were never meant to be defined by simple labels."
「好啦好啦，你們都那麽聰明優秀，連感情都搞得這麽覆雜；我這麽普通，簡直像個圈外人，根本插不進你們高手過招的世界。」志文忍不住吐苦水。
「圈外人？」孟禎若有所思地笑了，「王大哥也說過類似的話呢。他覺得相對於凱琳姐和我，自己偶爾也會有這種隔閡感。志文，你並不孤單哦。」她話鋒一轉，「而且你可能不知道，我們私下聊天時經常提到你，對你的評價可是很高的。我爸上次有說，他給你看了關節液壓伺服系統圖，你只花了一晚上就提出了三個雖然稚嫩卻思路靈活的優化建議。王大哥也說過，你的技術能力和知識儲備，已經快趕上宇尋的初級工程師了，學習能力令人印象深刻。說起來，我真的很感謝你為理解我的系統和構造付出的努力。」她伸手輕輕點了點志文的鼻尖。
「黃博士嗎？還有王董，真的這麼說？我被你們這些『大神』誇獎了？」志文一下子來了精神，眼睛都亮了起來。
「當然是真的，」孟禎肯定地點頭，「你確實不能和凱琳那樣的稀世天才相比，而我展現的『性能』也離不開宇尋給的頂級軟硬件，沒有可比性。連王大哥都說，他像你這個年紀時，未必比你厲害，專注力和毅力可能還不如你呢。當然啦，」她忍不住笑出聲，「彆扭的程度，倒是沒人比得上你！」
"Fine, fine, you're all so brilliant and exceptional, even your relationships are this complicated. I'm so ordinary, I feel like a total outsider. I can't even get into your world of high-level maneuvering," Zhiwen complained.
"An outsider?" Meng Zhen smiled thoughtfully. "Brother Wang has said something similar. He feels that compared to Sister Kailin and me, he sometimes feels that same sense of distance. You're not alone, Zhiwen." Her tone shifted. "And you probably don't know this, but we often talk about you when we chat privately, and we think very highly of you. My dad mentioned the other day that he showed you the schematic for the articular hydraulic servo system, and you came up with three optimization suggestions in just one night. They were naive, yes, but the thinking was flexible. Brother Wang also said that your technical skills and knowledge base are already approaching that of a junior engineer at Yuxun, and that your ability to learn is impressive. Speaking of which, I'm truly grateful for all the effort you've put in to understand my systems and structure." She gently tapped the tip of his nose.
"Dr. Huang? And Chairman Wang, they really said that? I got praised by you 'god-tier' people?" Zhiwen immediately perked up, his eyes shining.
"Of course it's true," Meng Zhen affirmed. "You certainly can't be compared to a rare genius like Kailin, and the 'performance' I exhibit is inseparable from the top-tier hardware and software Yuxun gave me; it's not a fair comparison. Even Brother Wang said that when he was your age, he wasn't necessarily better than you, and his focus and perseverance might have even been less than yours. Of course," she couldn't help but laugh, "when it comes to being awkward and conflicted, no one can beat you!"
「彆扭就彆扭！反正我現在是不成熟，但總有一天會變得成熟可靠！」志文不服氣地宣言。
「我相信你，」孟禎雙手握住志文的手，眼神溫柔而堅定，「你的成長軌跡，我看得很清楚。雖然你自行認定的『情敵』還真不少：凱琳姐、王大哥，甚至還有......耶穌。」
「唉，」志文抱住頭，「我就是這樣，只好一直被妳笑。」他趕緊轉移話題，「對了，王董不是每次視訊，都會秀他拍的凱琳姐美照嗎？這次有沒有？」
「哼，只要是美女，你們男生都想看是吧？傳給你了！」孟禎沒好氣地操作內部通訊。
志文迫不及待解鎖手機，屏幕上是一張構圖精美的照片：凱琳慵懶地臥在酒店窗邊小憩，窗外浦東的璀璨夜景如星河灑落。
"So what if I'm awkward! I may be immature now, but one day I'll become mature and reliable!" Zhiwen declared defiantly.
"I believe in you," Meng Zhen said, taking both of Zhiwen's hands in hers, her gaze gentle but firm. "I can see your growth trajectory very clearly. Although the 'love rivals' you've designated for yourself are quite numerous: Sister Kailin, Brother Wang, and even... Jesus."
"Sigh," Zhiwen buried his face in his hands. "That's just how I am. I guess I'll just have to let you laugh at me." He quickly changed the subject. "By the way, doesn't Chairman Wang always show off the beautiful photos he takes of Sister Kailin during your video calls? Did he send one this time?"
"Hmph, as long as it's a beautiful woman, you boys all want to see, don't you? Fine, I've sent it to you!" Meng Zhen huffed, operating her internal communicator.
Zhiwen eagerly unlocked his phone. On the screen was a beautifully composed photograph: Kailin was napping lazily by a hotel window, the glittering nightscape of Pudong spread out like a river of stars behind her.
「凱琳姐和王大哥去上海玩，住在浦東。她玩得太累睡著了，王大哥悄悄拍下這張『睡美人』。」孟禎語氣帶著羨慕，「你看凱琳姐多放鬆、多滿足，這是完全對伴侶放心的模樣。志文，你說，在你眼裡，有沒有過這樣的我？」
「睡美人是嗎？唔...有了！你等等...」志文興奮地翻找雲相冊，「啊哈！找到了！給你看我的珍藏！」
孟禎湊近一看，照片裡的她靜靜躺在地板上，腹部的維修蓋板打開，露出精密機械組件。檢修儀器通過線纜連接著她的頸部和腹部接口，雙手交疊在身前，閉著眼睛，仿佛在進行某種儀式。
"Sister Kailin and Brother Wang went to Shanghai and are staying in Pudong. She was exhausted from all the fun and fell asleep, so Brother Wang quietly took this 'Sleeping Beauty' picture," Meng Zhen said with a hint of envy. "Look how relaxed and content she is. That's the look of someone who completely trusts her partner. Zhiwen, tell me, have you ever seen me like that?"
"Sleeping Beauty, huh? Hmm... I've got one! Wait a second..." Zhiwen excitedly scrolled through his cloud album. "Aha! Found it! Let me show you my prized possession!"
Meng Zhen leaned closer to look. The photo showed her lying silently on the floor, the maintenance hatch on her abdomen open to reveal intricate mechanical components. Diagnostic instruments were connected by cables to her neck and abdominal ports. Her hands were folded on her chest, and her eyes were closed, as if she were in the middle of some ritual.
「陳、志、文！」孟禎氣得笑出來，捶了他一下，「這算什麽睡美人！根本是命案現場吧？你不僅彆扭，審美還扭曲！哪有人這樣拍女朋友的？像在拍故障機器...說！手機里還有多少這種怪圖？全都交出來刪掉！」
「才不要！」志文跳起來就往教室外跑，邊跑邊回頭喊，「我拍的每張照片都要留著！不管像僵屍、破車還是待修儀器，你都是我女朋友！這些都是我的珍藏！有本事來追啊！」
孟禎好氣又好笑地追了上去。空蕩的教室里，仿佛還迴蕩著他們的嬉鬧聲。志文邊跑邊想，王文興拍的是他心中的「女神」凱琳，而自己拍的，卻是「女神」孟禎表象下的「真實」；是只屬於他的，那樣的孟禎。只有他才有幸窺見孟禎於機械與靈魂交界處的迷人景象。
這種帶著幼稚卻充滿專屬幽默感的互動，正是這對特殊情侶才能享有的樂趣。在追逐笑鬧間，先前關於醋意與複雜情感的微妙話題，早已溶化成簡單純粹的快樂。
"Chen! Zhi! Wen!" Meng Zhen was so exasperated she started to laugh, punching him lightly. "What kind of Sleeping Beauty is this! It looks like a crime scene! You're not just awkward, your sense of aesthetics is twisted too! Who takes pictures of their girlfriend like this? It looks like a broken-down machine... Tell me! How many more weird pictures like this do you have on your phone? Hand them all over so I can delete them!"
"No way!" Zhiwen jumped up and ran for the classroom door, shouting over his shoulder as he went, "I'm keeping every single picture I take! Whether you look like a zombie, a wrecked car, or a machine waiting for repairs, you're my girlfriend! These are my treasures! Come and get me if you can!"
Half annoyed and half amused, Meng Zhen chased after him. In the empty classroom, the echoes of their playful shouts seemed to linger. As he ran, Zhiwen thought to himself that Wang Wenxing photographed the "goddess" Kailin in his heart, while he photographed the "reality" beneath the "goddess" Meng Zhen's exterior—a version of Meng Zhen that belonged only to him. Only he was privileged enough to glimpse the captivating sight of Meng Zhen at the intersection of machine and soul.
This kind of interaction, childish yet filled with an exclusive sense of humor, was a joy that only this special couple could share. In the midst of their chase, the earlier, delicate topics of jealousy and complex emotions had long since dissolved into simple, pure happiness.
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